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hornymeetscorny
12 October 2009 @ 09:28 am
 Im glad i have my ex to go with me. But yesterday was not something that she deserved. I dont know if i took panadol or something stronger, but i fell asleep like a pig while i was on the phone with her. I'm angry at myself. Its fking stupid. I have never done that before, and i didn't even say goodnight. And i dont even know why i was so tired. What she said is true, from not giving goodnight messages, to not even saying goodnight. How fking dumb can i be? This post is not even meant to be here. I need a slap back to reality. School's starting. Restart the engine. I will fking not fall asleep on the phone with her again, and i will not let her hear me fall asleep. That way, i will be able to put down the phone and send her a sweet goodnight message, even if the phone call wasn't the best that we had. I want to start the countdown. to the better days.

52 days

baby, i might not be the best for you, and it's made worst when im not even trying my best. you need to tell me about my flaws, just like when i always tell you about your flaws. we need to communicate, because we need to stay tight. ILY.


 
 
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hornymeetscorny
10 October 2009 @ 09:41 pm
 hooked onto hell's kitchen season 6, new song. and just when i was abt to get used to the holidays, school's gonna start. jc peeps, 6 weeks holiday is too short, i wonder how you guys survive with 2 weeks and 4 weeks holidays man. its like. wtf? and everybody should watch true blood. 


life's been kinda in a rush and everything now. i can't even meet bby for dinner/supper and we can only meet once a week thanks to that crazy bitch(not my ex). and ding's out to thailand. im kinda sick of going down to serangoon north and meeting with those malay brothers of mine. but i just cant stay at home. its crazy. guess next week onwards, we'll get to see each other real soon with the first aid course, and the kids athletic association coaching course and school's starting. that's the plus point. and i wanna meet my old friends real soon for some catchup, like michelle, which i haven seen since holidays(the interview not counted), gabriel, shahila(that idiot who sit at home and make her backside big only), bekah, and carine. all those jc peeps, i will meet you guys after your A lvls, especially junyang. and ezy skipped supper on me for 2 nights already! lol. 

 
 
Current Location: Singapore, Singapore
Current Mood: mixed
Current Music: falling for you - colbie.
 
 
hornymeetscorny
18 September 2009 @ 02:16 pm
 

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hornymeetscorny
17 September 2009 @ 12:42 am
 There's more than meets the cat-like eyes of the girl that i love. Love to be my partner, love forever(think about till death do us part). Behind that wild cat rage and demure lovely cat eyes, there's a whole world of angst, hatred, uncertainty and insecurities, pent up feelings just dying to be let out. And then, the battle begins, between the cat and the, um, lets give the other world an animal name, okay, lion. Because its bigger, fiercer, and much much much more unreasonable, gobbling people up just for snacks.

I see this in her eyes, and i dread the lion's gate. But somehow, i always make mistakes that she always make me feel like i deserve all the whole shit that she's throwing at me, and much more. Like, nothing can make up for what i did. Personally, i dont feel like i deserve it, but after some time, it just hits me and stays there, "Oh fuck! i just did something gravely wrong and what can i do to make things better now? Not to make things like how it was before and pretend like it never happened, but how to make things better and face the problem together. And this is because i love her dearly. 

She asked me, "Would you feel fine if i told my guy friends that i love them too? If you say yes, i won't be angry anymore." Please tell me how do i answer this question? I want to say, "Yes, if they did something nice for you that you appreciate, or relieved you of some of your burden." I wanted to say this because that was what i meant when i said it to Michelle. Because she found 2 jobs that allows us to work together and spend more time together, something that i was dying to do. After trying to look for a job that i can work together with you and not being able to find any, i was kinda desperate and exasperated because i can't find any other way to get you out of the house without your aunt having a reason to hold you back, not like any of the reasons she gave was reasonable. So when i heard that we could work for about a week or so together, i was happy. I wanted to tell her that i appreciated her efforts to help us find a job, and i'm sure she knows clearly what i meant. No other intentions, just appreciation for the act. I treat Zack as one of my good friends, and i love you.

I hope this will get to you because i know that if i opened my mouth and try to reason it out, its not going to work at all. But if you feel that what i just typed here are excuses, then i can only apologize to you. From the bottom of my heart, when i say that i love you to you, its something that only you should be able to comprehend. Because it is specially for you. For the special one in my heart, for the special one in my world. Allison Tan WanYi. Wake up please.
 
 
Current Mood: sober
 
 
hornymeetscorny
29 August 2009 @ 07:56 pm
okay, my long overdue post, now that the exams are over. and i promised you one since so long ago.

actually, nothing must has changed. we still talk as much on the phone, you still get angry at my mistakes and basically, i am still your boyfriend. just that in front of your friends, we're just friends. and i go on with my nonsense about us being bff's. haha. gosh this keyboard is so difficult to type on, so this is going to be a short post. ill type more later when i come back here to watch man united versus arsenal. go arsenal, and go to hell man united. you're going down!

AND WARNING, DO NOT BUY LENOVO ideapad. like the keyboard sucks like fuck. totally. meeting you in awhile, i love you babe.
 
 
Current Location: usman's house
Current Mood: full
Current Music: MJ's concert on ch 5.
 
 
hornymeetscorny
23 August 2009 @ 11:38 pm
 AH! nice new clean cut clean shaven, really pretty change to the skin. 

anw, exams are fucking coming up like, later at 9.30 am. and i didnt study much this time round. why? because i'm easily satisfied. somebody please slap me back to earth. just because i got a fucking B for developmental and B+ for Social Psych, i think i'm damn good. deep down inside, i know i still need to study hard, but guess what, i didn't. fuck myself. i go kill myself if i flunk my papers. Damn the world shitty world.

beeteedoubleyou. me and my girlfriend brokeup alr. but don't get your hopes too high assholes. we're getting back tgt soon, i bet my life on it. and babe, don't comment on this. haha.

damn funny yesterday. Gid wanted to meet bby at gardens. and i bet he thinks that i won't be coming along since we already broke up. but that look on his face when he saw me walking beside bby, oh man, i know how he felt. i'll give the sad face, ode to Gideon :(

had frolick last night after making ding wait for 1 hour, and got a friggin small fries in the packaging of a large fries, and the cost of a large fries. idiotic staffs are Gardens McD. just because you get paid for 3.50 an hour doesn't mean you can cheat everyone's money hor. anw, short post, i need to sleep. and ooh, i just told jeremias not to call bby too late and he got angry. what an idiot loser. i also never say cannot talk to my bby, i just say i dont want my bby to sleep too late right. cut your rebonded fringe and make it into bangs then you know. -.-

goodnight.
 
 
Current Mood: Vulgar.
 
 
hornymeetscorny
15 August 2009 @ 05:07 pm
 now i know why people think of ending their lives when they're so down. it really feels like the world is crashing down on them.
 
 

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hornymeetscorny
11 August 2009 @ 11:40 pm
 been a crazy hell of a time these past weekend. been spending loads of time together, its obscene. not since we first got together have we actually spent this much time together. thursday night, baby's family all go hongkong or macau, duno la. then that night spent together at her aunt's house. then saturday, after my soccer match with yuhang's team where bby followed to watch me play a match for the first time in my life, we went for supper and a "expert screening" of terminator at ding's house. 

11.30pm. we were on the cab to supposedly send my bby home. 
BBY: So how? you want anot? this kinda of time, everyone inside their room all doing their own stuff!
ME: You sure anot? later your bro bro come out suddenly and see me, then he will say, WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOING INSIDE MY HOUSE!
BBY: Are you done yet? Just wait downstairs abit until he come down and take his mac, then i will bring you up.

Inside the house, i hid inside the maid's room which is beside the kitchen, with no fan and minimal ventilation. Basket, the abit took at least 5-10 minutes. i was sweating like a dick by the time the bro went back up and my gf came to fetch me. not helped by the maid just having a small opening in the window. PANAS!

but it was cool. went down to the aunt's house on sunday morning. slept till afternoon, then went home to bathe and all. then come back again in the evening to study! really. i sat there for a fucking long time to do my report and i came up with about 1000 words. and her aunt from germany treated us all to pizza hut delivery. the receptionist is fucking idiotic!

PH: do you have internet at home? Blodbend?
BBY: HUH? Blodbend ah?
PH: ya, blodbend!
BBY: oh ya. got got. got broadband. why?

CB, english also fucking fail. still ask if we want pepsi 10 times. we alr say dont want means dont want la. 

AND AND AND. HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEKEND IS MONDAY! bby's mum treated us all to seoul garden! supposed to be carnivore lor, but blame it on the timing. dammit. if not i can eat carnivore alr lor. but nevertheless, she's cool yo. its like 120 bucks for 4 ppl. haha. im so fortunate -.- and and and! i was so pressured to continue eating that i ate until i wanted to puke! u should see how much meat kay gin(bro bro) ate la. i think its more than 5 fucking kilos of red sliced beef. with all the blood. sick shat

and yes, these few days come like once or twice a year. but this was the best. i enjoyed it. and i have never regretted being with my bby all these while. she's my love. <3 goodnight. 
 
 
Current Location: HOME
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: take a bow - rihanna
 
 
hornymeetscorny
04 August 2009 @ 09:25 pm
good day, bad night. baby has a fun daytime with the climax being her braces removed. 



i dont know if you're seeing 2 or 1 of the pic. lj photo upload sucks -.- but nehmind, 2 means you get to see more of my love!

anw, i was so happy for her that she finally managed to get the braces off her teeth after like what? 3 years?

but i just had to spoil the mood by sleeping when i got home, and waking up at 9, when im supposed to go over and help her in her public speaking speech. she wants to interview me and my friend about experiences of being drunk and how i need to clean up the puke. supposedly getting drunk at the club. she wanted to make it special, and beat the crap out of the shitty girl who always tops the class based on the teacher's bias-ness. 

and guess what. i didnt wake up. trust myself to wake up. i really need to rely on the things and people around me. tell me how hopeless i am. question now, how can i trust myself to hold on to her, even though i want her to be mine real bad. i want her to be mine forever. Selamanya.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: disappointed
 
 
hornymeetscorny
02 August 2009 @ 01:45 pm
 okay. basically the moment of truth is a game where you draw cards and the table get to ask you a question from the card, personalised to a certain degree. and if they think that you are lying, you gotta take the lie detector test. fun right?

HIGHLIGHTS OF THE NIGHT.

Card: ASK YOUR OWN QUESTION!
ASLAM: MUAHAHAHA! HILMI! That time when you were drunk and you said you wanted to whatever whatever with nisa, do you mean it?
Nisa: OMG OMG! FUCK YOU! (close eyes)
Hilmi: UHHH.. Sorry Nisa, that time i was drunk ah. And yes, i mean it. 
Usman: HAHA! I believe!
Nisa: AHH!
Aslam: I knew it!

and yes, alot of other stuff, you can read it at nisa's blog, helloawesome.lj.

down to abit more serious stuff, 
i can't help it that you effing hate it wheni go over and sleepover at my friend's house. i used to sleepover alot and they are one of my best friends, even if we don't seem like it. we don't go to school tgt and the only times when i get to meet them is over the weekend, one of them. this time, i haven't met them for about a month or so. 

that time when i met them for 30 mins after tuition, we had so much to talk about, i felt that one whole night wasn't gonna be enough. and i don't know why i said that i was going to meet them for 30 mins. maybe just because i don't want to make you upset. but yes, i need to meet and talk to them. 

i like it when you're selfish and only want me to yourself. but baby, we meet and see each other everyday except on one weekend, and we talk everyday. it makes me feel that your whole world revolves around me. and i appreciate it. and i don't want any of it to change. i just want that little bit of understanding that i want to meet my friends once in a while too. and i would appreciate it if you don't throw your tantrums like that because when i try to sleep, i keep thinking that i did something horribly wrong and i shouldn't have done it. and yes, i have trouble falling asleep.

i don't know what runs in your head but i always make an effort to understand every action that you make, even if they are unreasonable. and i hope that you'll make that little bit of effort to do the same for me. 

on another important point, let's talk about the evolvement of our relationship and see if it applies with other long term relationships.

as for me, i felt that we have gone far in our relationship. when we first started out, we just want to see each other and be with each other. hold hands, watch movies and just look into each other's eyes, swearing never to let go. everything else is just not as important. i spent money on anything and everything for fun. movies everyday, every single day, and we took the taxi just so we have the alone time tgt. 

as time passes, and more hurdles that we overcame, the priorities of a relationship changes. we tend to support each other more emotionally and though sometimes money is a problem for me, you always help me overcome it. we become more understanding of each other and for me, i learn to filter all the things that you throw at me as "i mean it" and "i dont mean it", esp the shit when you're not in your mood. though we spent less time together as compared to when we were last time, i feel that our love for each other has grew. now, we look at each other for warmth and someone we care for and to be cared for. its like our partner is what completes us. without each other, we feel empty and incomplete. okay, not so much of empty but more of like "there's something missing".

i dont know if this is just for me, what are you views? 

im sorry if this long post feels like there's no flow. im kinda distracted. hungry, sleepy and oily. :/

ps; i love you darling, and i hope this doesn't affect your mood. (L) read my fingers.

IM MEETING MY GIRL IN 2 HOURS! CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT!
 
 
Current Location: HOME
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: gravity - sara bareilles (cover by cathy nguyen)
 
 
hornymeetscorny
30 June 2009 @ 04:02 pm
 After not blogging for awhile, i kinda got some stuff that i can talk about. Lets not talk about my girlfriend first. And lets not talk about the demise of one of the greatest icon, MJ. Because people mostly see him as a legend rather than a wacko, though there is 15% percent of the idiots who did the polling in fb that said that he’s a wacko. Stupid idiots.

Lets talk about sustaining a relationship. Last time before i got together with dear tan wanyi back then, i barely knew her for 3 weeks. Or was it 3 months. Though alot of people pushed for me to get together with her, i wasn’t sure because i felt that 3 months was too short to know somebody and i wasn’t sure i know enough about her to keep me liking her, but my gut feeling told me to just do it. and guess what happened. We ended sourly after 3 months. Make it 2 months. And mostly, its down to my fault because i don’t know what i was doing and i was kinda desperate to get outta it. stupid selfish me. I guess i was crazy about the girl that im sure most of my friends would know about. I hurt her. I hurt her so bad, she never forgot about it. not even after we got back together, i wouldn’t say we got back together. I’ll say, after we get together again at the end of 2008, because i was a different person then.

She doesn’t believe that its possible for someone to change in such a short while, and yet change so much, so she still has doubts about my love for her. And sometimes, we have this trust issue that she can’t trust me or rely on me too much lest i leave her again. Guess she forgot that when we got together again, i told her, if ever we breakup again, it’d be because you don’t want me anymore.

And then again, something bad happened again that put our relationship on the line. It’s the incident that i wouldn’t want to talk about. But it kinda got me scared so bad, i was shaken. After that, i find it hard to trust her being with other guys or mingling freely. Selfish? Maybe. And it became a problem when she entered tp. But it was settled easily. The issue is, what if it happens again?

I don’t know what i’ll do without her. And neither do i want to lose her. But if i ever have to, i need all my friends to be behind me. And i won’t blame it on anybody, but fate. But till that day comes, which i hope it doesn’t, i’ll try to be the best boyfriend that i can be. J

Mm, okay, in general. How does other boyfriends treat their girlfriends? I wonder. Because i feel that the way i treat my girlfriend is different. I seem to be the one that is more feminine in this relationship and as a result, sometimes i do get bullied. Haha. I raised the issue of she being more sensitive to my feelings sometimes, but i guess she got no comments. Not that i care about it, but i do get hurt sometimes, i mean my pride, for that split minute. Guess this is an issue that i need to address, but then again, it might just be who she is, i can’t change it.

People out there, despite how sour your relationship with your girlfriend/boyfriend is, one thing’s for sure, you love your partner, that’s why you’re willing to bear the shit that gets thrown at you and sometimes you lose your cool, but at the end of the day, you still can’t bear to be without your partner, and you two make up. If there’s one thing that i’ve learnt from this ongoing 1 year 6 months plus relationship would be that, don’t do something that you will regret in future. If you feel that you deserve what you want, then make people see it your way. Because if you don’t fight for it, you will regret later on. Sometimes the fight is tough, but you gotta do it. its between your perception of whether what you’re going to lose is worth what you’re fighting for. And never give up.

Its been a long post. 30 minutes of bus ride and this is what i came up with. Splendid. Most incredibly so. Haha. Let me end of this post with song of the week in my playlist. 

 


anw, i'll talk about flirting when you already have a partner! till then, cheerios!
 

 

 
 
Current Location: home la deyy
Current Mood: THIRSTY!
Current Music: cagayake - k-on!
 
 
hornymeetscorny
18 June 2009 @ 05:27 pm
hello peeps. uh, wait. i think its mostly only my girlfiend who's reading this. haha.

okay, amidst all this pile of junkwork that all of us poly people have to do, and all the mugging that all the JC people have to do, we all have our own lives. and here's mine.

its kinda okay. i love it when i hear your soothing voice over the phone, it melts my heart. but when you're unhappy about something, or stressed up, i get this feeling that it's not going to be a good day. its your mood that affects my mood. because when you're unhappy, it makes me feel helpless. i can't do anything about it. and it's not making me feel good. i don't know why i fail in this aspect, and it brings me back to earth, making me feel flawed, more human than ever. i don't know why i can't seem to find the way to take the burden off your shoulders. maybe because its just too heavy. or you're just resigned to fate. i don't know. it come to a certain point where the only thing i can do when you're not feeling yourself, is to be here, stay silent and make sure you know that im here. and it kills me slowly.

but that's it. other than that, you're perfect in my eyes. recently, im quite happy. i've been meeting up with people i haven met in years, and talking to people that i was once closed with. and i realised how much the detachment had caused change in them. and some of them yearn to be like before, happy go lucky. i must admit, i feel fortunate that despite all this workload, i still have time for my girlfriend, for my friends, and for myself. and for people who exist to make life difficult for other people, you deserve to be shot.

and all 4e6-ers, please join the grp that i have ask yunjie to make! then we can go on a class outing! :)

so long and so forth, till we meet again, blog.

because i'm only human. 
 
 
Current Location: home la deyy
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: some david archuleta song
 
 
hornymeetscorny
20 March 2009 @ 12:54 am
hmm bby.

why is that you always talk like i'm not loving you enough? stuff like, im not worth the change and your crazy moodswings. first of all, you are my girlfriend. we've been together for more than a year, and my love for you keeps growing over this period of time. so much so that i try to spend everyday with you so that i won't get scared of losing you, thats how much i love you. i try very hard for the past year to make some small little things specially ours, things that will remind you of us, like our daily goodnight ritual and goodbye kisses. but you asked if i could scrape it off after a year and a quarter. because it's too long. it's not even 15 seconds. and i say the 6 things because i really mean it. everyday, every moment.

i think you tend to say things that you don't really mean or things that you will regret when you are unhappy. and i always try my best not to make you unhappy. but its really really tough when recently, every small mistake will make you unhappy. bby, you should try to understand that i'm trying my best to keep you by my side and make you as happy as possible, but i need you to help yourself too. try to look on the bright side of things everyday, and let every downfall or setback be a lesson that you have to work harder or sometimes just ignore it. rather than being so grim and so negative everyday, it will affect your mood, your health, your overall and it will threaten our relationship, and it will affect me too.

bby, you know how much my friends mean to me. i know you don't like it when i go out without you, but you hate my friends and dont want to go out with them. and as much as i want to spend every moment with you, i need my friends by my side too. i can't have them telling me that i only go and find them when i have my troubles. so, please try to understand. just like how i let you be friends with anybody and talk to you friends and go out with them, and even if im jealous or worried, i keep my emotions in check, i hope you'll try to do the same for me.

i'm not asking for any change in you, for me. i'm just asking for a little effort to keep your emotions in check and have a positive outlook in life. i love you alot, no doubt, and no matter how mean you are, i will still be by your side. i know you love me as much, and i want to see that we go through life together. maybe we'll last till marriage and so on, but let's not say the what if not. because looking at your goals only often make things easier and not letting other thoughts influence you.

it's 1am in the morning, and we just had a small quarrel because i didn't hear what you were saying earlier. like i've said before, you get too easily annoyed by me. i just hope that you will realise that these small things are not worth ending your day in a foul mood. i will try my best not to get on your nerve, but i'm asking that you put in that teeny little bit of effort in making your day, and thus making mine too.

this does not change anything in the fact that i love you alot, and will always do. sometimes, you just need to take a deep breath and let your heartbeat slow down, think rationally, smile and not get angry. because then, will you see the world in a more colourful light. patience is the key. :) bby, i love you. happy 472nd day in this relationship. and i hope you're happy being with me, and don't regret that you made this decision to be with me.

goodnight, sleep tight, sweet dreams, take care. i miss you. i love you.  
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: fan blowing
 
 
hornymeetscorny
04 March 2009 @ 01:28 pm
aye, hello people. i fell sick yesterday with a sickening food poisoning/gastric flu. but i think its food poisoning cuz i ate that stupid yesterday's food. like puked 10 times, farted and burped a million times. zz ttm.

went to the doc on our 15th month anniversary and got a jab. the needle damn long la! but not very painful :) then took a couple of medicine and the doctor insists that she gives me antibiotics just because she doesn't have change for the 50 bucks -.-

food poisoning sucks shitloads, you lose all appetite to eat and drink and all you want to do is lie on the bed and fall asleep for the whole day. anw, my mum just came back from the hospital yesterday. went for a surgery to remove the right breast cuz of breast cancer, now damn flat. sad sia. good thing my dad and my mum are still in love with each other. if not, jialat. lol

and this goes to my darling, wanyi. i'm sorry that it had to happen on our 15th monthsary.  i want to meet you and go out, watch a movie with you and spend some time with you as much as you do. and i didnt purposely fall sick so that i won't meet you. :( i also dont want to fall sick. it take my appetite away, and that's like taking away one of the most important things in my life, food. i think i lost like 4-5kg. damn shiok. haha. 

i read through some of the saved messages that we used to text each other last time, and i think i was better at words previously than now. once i got together with you, it seems like i dont need that skill anymore, because we both love each other deeply that words don't really play an important part. 

and i also have this message that i sent to the muttons about yiz. now that i look back at it again, its really dumb and foolish -.- how can i actually make a girl wait for me while i chase a stupid dream. i admit i must have exerted emotional trauma unto you, but i hope you understand that i was still a foolish little boy with a crazy mind at that time. as we moved along, i grew older and mature. and i hope you know that i'm a changed person. i'll try my best to make it up to you, everything wrong that i have done previously. it's only our 15th monthsary. and we still have got a century more to go. and i hope when my time's up, you would've forgiven me, because that's what love truly means. bby, i love you. <3

and also, i hope you trust me and believe in me. because whatever other people tell you about me, you should know me best. i'm no longer the old Aslam; the cold-hearted boy i used be.

happy 15th monthsary. 


"i love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'till I die"
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: recovering
Current Music: all these things that i've done - the killers
 
 

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hornymeetscorny
20 February 2009 @ 01:39 am
Yes, I am talking about you,
SHAWN ANN SHORTY.



I love you.

 
 
hornymeetscorny
20 February 2009 @ 01:08 am
in regards to my gf's post. MICHELLE IS JUST A FRIEND. WE DONT TALK ABOUT SEX. I DONT HAVE FRIENDS WHO DISLIKE YOU AT ALL! ALL MY FRIENDS LOVE YOU AND WANT TO MEET YOU! AND THEY RESPECT ME THAT YOU'RE MY GF AND DONT TRY TO TALK OR ACT FUNNY AROUND ME! hmph. how's this for an angry post.
EAT SHIT FUCKING SHORTY. GO FUCK YOURSELF. DONT TOUCH MY GF FUCKING BITCH! 
 
 
Current Mood: good
 
 
hornymeetscorny
19 February 2009 @ 11:59 pm
 let me vent my anger off first. i want to kill your bff. i hate him like crap. just the mere say of his name will make my smile turn to a frown. i dont want you to even stay in touch with him, but i dont want to control your group of friends. i very scared that he will make you breakup with me. :( very very scared sometimes. but sometimes, i believe that you wont. but still, i hate him. fucking bastard, what kind of friend got like that one? i officially banished him from my friend's list. not like he care also i think. 

anw, off to a more happier note, we spent our 2nd out of like, 100th valentine's day a few days ago. i love my darling! <3
 
at mustafa a few days before valentine's day. cute right? omg. :D
  
i tried to call up some restaurants to do reservation one day before valentine's day, thinking im so darn smart. in the end, all fully booked, even Prive at Marina. in the end, we ended up walking around town and having an early dinner at spageddies at paragon. its quite nice! omg, im so hungry now. haha. i did a drawing for darling, at first its damn nice on the grey paper. then i itchy hand go cut. cut alr, paste, not nice the border. went to paint it, came out red border. damn stupid sia. but i still think overall, its quite okay. right darling? :) sorry for the lack of updates lah. i just think that nobody reads my blog anymore. lol. 



remind me that we'll always have each other. <3


 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: my darling's voice over the phone. :)
 
 
hornymeetscorny
05 February 2009 @ 01:44 pm

Okay people. I’m back. And I’m sorry I took a month plus long vacation. Been thinking about stuff, thinking maybe I don’t need this blog anymore because everything’s been going so well. But something old resurfaced and new pent up anger needed to be released. Thinking about it already makes me feel like that fucker should be taught a lesson. But nevermind, you’re all mine now, at least I think you are. J

 

 Anyway, here’s the case for today, ‘what does it mean to be insecure’. Does reassurances by words actually cure your insecurities? Ill give you the answer. It’s a straight no. people suffer from insecurities everyday, and for me, I face the insecurity of having to lose my girlfriend every moment I’m not with her. And its not helped by the fact that she also feels insecure and keeps saying that we’ll have to breakup sooner or later. What dominates her mind is the future, that we won’t be together. I told her that we both can’t live without each other as much, so what’s the worry? I’ve been doing my best to keep this relationship going and so far, so good. And I’m not about to stop.

 

Dear readers, please tell me your experiences feeling insecure, be it being scared of losing a loved one, be scared of being found out that you like that person(yes im talking about you, lim yizhen). Haha. Or be it being scared of losing yourself, because I personally feel that identity is important and I’m not about to lose myself, no matter what. I know who I am, I act who I am, and I won’t conform.

 

And valentine’s day is coming up! GIVE ME YOUR IDEAS AS TO WHAT I CAN GIVE FOR VALENTINE’S DAY AND WHERE WE CAN GO FOR A NICE DINNER!

I was thinking that I will draw a sketch of something to show how much I love my dear girlfriend. But I still don’t know what to buy for her. For places to eat, I’ve got a few places in mind, maybe Carnivores. They’re good. And if she would like, I don’t mind splashing abit of cash. It’s valentines day. Show your loved ones how much they mean to you, and make sure it gets stucked in their heads for the next one year, so you won’t have too much trouble having to reassure your loved ones throughout the year.

 

And for your info darling, I forgive you wholly, and I’ll try my best to forget it. I love you, stick with me. 

 


 
 
Current Location: school
Current Mood: calm
 
 
hornymeetscorny
30 December 2008 @ 06:22 pm
hm, i realise that sometimes, people(we) create an illusion for ourselves. so that our true emotions which is reality, doesn't get to us. like when you know that you have already failed, or circumstances are not in your favour, you tend to come up with a situation in your mind in which the bad current situation is actually working in your favour. for example, EXAMPLE ONLY, a girl you like is getting closer to your friend instead of you and you know that she likes your friend. in your heart, you told yourself, i give up then. but you also create an illusion that she's getting closer to your friend so that she can ask more about you. lol. this is something about ego. ego makes you think that you are the center of the world. imagine if the world is without ego. maybe, not without ego, just not too much. wouldn't it be nice?

another thing i noticed is that secondary school couples or whichever couple i see on the streets. they hold hands but you feel that they're acting abit awkward. i feel that its a sign that they cannot get along well. or they're having troubles in the relationship. like there's a distance between them to the extent that they even walk a distance apart from each other, even if they're holding hands. and i hate it when i see a couple walking hand in hand, but one of them is having a handphone in their hands, either smsing or whatever. people should learn to treasure the time that they have together. imagine what would happen if that time is taken away from them. will they learn how to make use of this time more productively? not literally. productive doesnt mean that they must do work or do things together. just talking to each other or just simple coversations will do. sometimes, you just need to warm up to the other person before some of the troubles of the heart start coming out and you, as the listener, will feel good that you managed to lift a burden off the shoulders of a loved one. your loved one also will feel good. this is what being productive means, making each other feel good. but sometimes, just company and attention is needed. communication transcends words. you dont have to talk. maybe that's the epitome of understanding and people should try to understand it.

and something about shades. whenever i see a woman wearing big shades covering half their faces and their lips doesnt curl into a smile, i get this conception that the woman must be a fucking bitch and thinks that shes fucking pretty and all. but guess what, i just met a woman who has shades covering her face and dressed like a model on the bus. sat beside her. scared she'll scream into my face or smt. then when she was getting down, she took off her shades, smiled at me and said excuse me. it kinda taught me not to create impressions about people based on how they dressed. its not that they want to cover half their faces because they dont want to be disturbed or feel that only people worthy of her angelic face should be given the privilege to see her face. its because they're just tired from the harsh reality of the world. because i feel that the world is moving too fast. because i feel that people are missing too many things in their life. because i feel that people no longer understand the meaning of friendship. because too many people think they found love, but its just their selfish desires that they have found and fulfilled to a certain extent.

i wont clearly say that i have found love. but i'm working towards it. because faith i have. everybody needs to find faith in theirselves. because faith will be the reason why you are living.

this must've been my most decent post up to date.

happy new year readers and i promise to post something up at least once a week. :)

goodbye // 
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: forbidden paradise - DJ Tiesto
 
 
hornymeetscorny
06 December 2008 @ 02:48 pm
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cool huh. sorry i've been busy with exams. been meeting up with the domo family almost everyday, mich, zack, kenny, aaron and mummy pris. lol. okay la, take care all my readers. duno how many ppl read my blog -.- 
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: song for a friend - jason mraz